well, not really, cause this way i know things are working the way they should. but still...
i've learned one important thing so far. if you're not 110% positive that you want to eat what's in front of you, don't eat it. if there's something in the back of your head saying "buffalo wings and fries", but you think that's crazy cause of the grease and the heartburn and the heaviness, go with your GUT instinct.
the other day i ate a bagel with cream cheese all in one sitting! and it was before 1pm!! i felt pretty full afterwards, but i didn't feel sick. a little while later i had a craving for a panera salad with soup. i knew i wasn't going out to get it by myself, so i pushed the thought away. when zane got home from work, i still had the craving and he was nice enough to agree to have panera for dinner. i scarfed on the salad and some of the soup. i was full again but not sick. and when i woke up in the middle of the night, expecting to feel that gnawing hunger/nausea, i didn't feel anything! i got up anyway and had a little snack to tide me for a few more hours. the next day i felt pretty good as long as i didn't get an empty stomach.
suddenly it's friday. zane gets home from work and we take avery to the play space for a quick outing. i was starting to feel hungry before we left, but tried to ignore it and packed some chips and a clementine if i needed it. by the time we were leaving the play space, i was so hungry that i was feeling sick. i pushed the "buffalo and fries" out of my head because i didn't want to spend the money and i knew we needed to get avery home for her own dinner, bath and bed. i ended up making pasta shells with butter and salt because it was easy and i thought i could eat a few. i didn't want them necessarily, but ate them anyway.
BIG mistake. minutes later my stomach hurt and i felt terrible. all night i tried eating little bits of anything to make it go away. i "slept" sitting up all night and couldn't find one thing that was appealing to eat. this morning was as bad as i think i've ever felt pregnant. i will never ignore a craving again.
i absolutely cannot WAIT until i can eat like a normal person again and make dinners for the family and enjoy mealtimes.
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